Happy Birthday Mom...I love you and miss you every day.Today would have been my mother's 91st birthday. Maybe the Universe knew best, taking her at age 52. Sparing her the aging process,the loses that are bound accompany life, disappointments and sorrows. I don't know, I don't pretend to understand. I needed her here. I had been a new mother exactly 6 weeks before she died. We lived in eastern Michigan, she lived in west central Wisconsin. Grayhound or driving were the choices. Neither good with a sick baby in Dec. And then the early morning phone call no one wants, and a 12 drive back to WI. What I didn't have the courage to do while she lived, I did with death as my motivation. She never got to see my first child, her first grandchild. Regrets, oh yes, I have a few.
But time mellows most things, and I count over the happy times. The things that brought her joy and made her proud. What she valued, what she loved. I carry all of it in my heart and in my head. I think we all do once a parent leaves us. Them, forever the parent, and us, forever the child. And we step into their shoes, become the keeper of the keys. And our children step into our shoes, the next generation waiting in the wings. And so, today, like all the 25th days of July past, I wish my mom a very happy birthday and pray that she is at rest.
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22 comments:
Very bittersweet, Finn. I miss my mom like crazy too. She died at 55 - too young.
Sending you a soft hug Finn ((((( )))))
Finn - I'm sure she is - I firmly believe in an afterlife and she will take delight that you have reached such an 'at peace' stage in your life now - I feel privileged that both my parents are still around now I'm 46 - they're 67 and 76 - I still feel like a little girl if I think what it will be like when they're gone - I hope it will be a long time coming. My Dad lost his mum when she was 51, I don't think he's ever got over it even at 76
I'm sending ou huge hugs Finn ... all the way across the Pacific.
I'm sure she's watching over you, and so proud of all you do.
*huge hugs*
Tazzie
:-)
Beautiful words about your Mom... What a striking picture. Hope you enjoyed your day, remembering the good stuff.
Melanie
(((((((HUGS))))))))) to you my friend! What a wonderful tribute to your Mama. Like you I have regrets of visits not made when I still had the chance to spend time with my Mama. But fretting over what I should have done won't bring her back so, again like you, I choose to remember the good times we had when we were together rather than the whatifs.
I'm sure your Mom is smiling down at you as you celebrate her life on this day.
We always miss our mothers no matter how soon or how late they leave us. We also all have regrets but I guess best just to dwell on the good times and positive memories.
Even tho you no longer have your mom, just think - now you have all us blog SISTERS!!! When are we having a family reunion? Thinking of you today.
What a beautiful lady your mom was. Its hard not having a mom to turn to but I know she is watching over you and very proud of the wonderful person her daughter is. Hugs
Finn,
It's good to remember. I still miss my Dad and he's been gone 40 years.
I believe they never stop watching over us, so she's there with you.
Sending a hug (((())))
Bittersweet indeed...Finn. No mother would chose to leave her kids over the ravages of old age and time. Believe me it wasn't her intention to go. I am glad that you can remember her so fondly on her birthday, and I'm sure everyday.
I know that she feels you every day and your love, and is watching over you and waiting for the time when you can be together again...but not for a long while yet. Take care.
Finn, here's a hug for you! I lost my dad ten years ago though it seems like only yesterday. I was daddy's little girl and miss him terribly. I'm sure your mom is looking down and smiling at the terrific person you are!!
good to celebrate the life and memories of your mom-that's how we honor those that have forged ahead.
thanks for sharing...hugs
We never stop needing or wanting our mom -- no matter where we are in life, but they live on through us and our children. A precious legacy, indeed. *hugs* Libby
Your post brought tears to my eyes Finn - to lose you mother at such an early age is awful. I'm so glad you have good memories to cherish. I'm so glad to have had my mother until my kids were in high school - whenever they die is still too soon.
My sympathy, Finn. My mom died when I was 9 and she was 45, and it was also July. Not a day goes by that I don't wish she were here, and I'm older than she was when she died. I visited her grave this summer and cried like a baby. The loss is always there. I'm glad my own children haven't had to deal with it. In another few months, both will be in their 30s, one at each end. You carry on. Love the picture of your mom.
Your Mom is so beautiful in that picture, Finn. Your words are so moving. God bless you, my dear friend.
Hugs....
I loved the picture of your mom and as you already know having a picture of my mom would mean a lot to me.
I know you miss her very much and I know how you felt that she was not even able to see your first child. We all miss our moms even when they have been gone for many years...But I'm sure that your mom is smiling down on you as she reads the lovely tribute that you have written on what would have been her birthday.
Hugs to a good friend.
Sandy
Hi Finn,
I learn so much from you every day, I love coming to your journal and sharing you life experience in quilting and esp. in life. I am very blessed that both of my parents are still with me, now I just need to get healthy so that I can go visit. Big Hugs Tina
Many waters cannot quench love...how true. I am so thankful for the love God bears us and what he suffered to save us. What precious memories you have shared with us.. Its really hard to be separated from our children too, this I know from experience when ours went away to college and then our daughter stayed away to work and then marry. That was a rocky time emotionally for me. I'm thankful my soul is finally reconciled to it all now.
I was lucky--I had my mother till she was almost 96, and that still wasn't enough. It didn't seem possible that there could be a world without her. Everything looks different to me since the day she died.
I to read your post with tears in my eyes. I lost my mom at the age of 80 five years ago and I miss her everyday. She was the sister I never had and my best friend. I've had a hard time now that I no longer have that emotional connection.I have a husband and three sons but it's not the same.What a lovely picture of your mom.I still get teary eyed every time I see an elderly lady in a wheel chair or a mother and daughter out shopping and laughing.
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